It's been awhile since I blabber something in here. Since I'm sleepy but yet can't find the right position and be asleep, might as well i put some thoughts in this place. Few months ago there's an uprising of 'anti-racism' movement going on in my batch, or more like anti bumiputera status. People started posting anti-racism status, videos of racism in Malaysia, and even more after the Interlok issue, these things keep on coming like hot banana fritters. Everyone seemed to be the expert or at least a victim of the 'racism'. Posting status and videos which shouted,"im a victim of racism! please pity on me" is becoming the trend.
However, my mind keeps on thinking again and again trying to recall back what i learn from History subject during my SPM years. The social contract and all are now slowly forgotten and started to be put aside in the name of 'unity' or oneness. I dont blame them for trying to fight for their 'right'. The governing race of Malaysia should be put to blame. I know helping your own race is a good thing but helping them TOO much when sometimes they don't deserve to be helped is another matter. In the 1960s when Harimau Malaya was feared by neighbouring countries, we had all sort of race playing in the team. Malay,Chinese,Indian,Singh,Iban...u name it..they were all represented. But now? I remember watching the triumph of Harimau Malaya against Garuda team late 2010. The victory which our country sought after for so long, a victory of which they say finally football has come back here, won by a team formed 95% by Malay and coached by an Indian. Why is that? Where have the others gone? Shouldn't we learn from history that united we are strong? When in the 1960s, we WERE strong. But trying to hold on to the 'Malay Supremacy' just pure stupid. But I also believe that it is not just the fault of the governing race. The politician of the other races should be blame as well. Playing on the racism cards for the sake of power, didn't we learn anything from 13 May?
About the bumiputera status, for what its worth, i stil strongly believe it should be there as long as the other races are allowed to keep their own school and languages. And i believe that IF the other races still want equality, so be it. Let there be ONE language, ONE school. No more sitting with chinese or indian and felt left out because they are talking in their own world. WE can be like Indonesia then, where every race is the same. But the question is, would the other races agree to abolish all those Sekolah Jenis Kebangsaan and usage of their mother tongue from any official occasions? No more Tamil news, no more Chinese news, just Malaysian news in BAHASA MALAYSIA? hows that sound? to me that is the only fair justification if the bumiputera status to be abolished, because by doing so all the other races will focus more on MALAYSIA instead of coming back to their root. but somehow i feel malaysians are not ready for this. Give and take? naah...
Heck....that's just one person opinion anyway. Won't count much...
Monday, February 14, 2011
Monday, November 29, 2010
Just something that popped in my mind..
General election is coming soon.....seeing all the by-elections trend, somehow we can predict the outcome of this coming general election...
Anyway, i read somewhere that some of the people in Malaysia wanted to make the age limit of putting out a vote is 18 years old...currently it is 21 years old...maybe some parties thought that by giving power to the younger ones, they might actually win an election...might be true, for one semester only..when they grow up(if they grow up) they will know the lies and games of politicians..i remember the war cry used by the Americans to change their age limit to 18, "if ur old enough to die for ur country, ur old enough to vote for ur leader"
its catchy, nice and somehow patriotic....but i like to put it this way,"if ur old enough to pay ur own taxes, ur old enough to vote who will spend the money" :D
i prefer dat the age limit of voting is set when an individual starts paying taxes...means they actually do something productive in the country rather than live as a parasite..just my idea though..a hell lot of people will be against it for sure...because a lot of people do nothing but want a hand in the vote...
hmm...i always wonder, what democracy really is...and after living for 22 years on this earth, i realised that its something like this....its about majority...the majority will choose a leader, and the leader will serve the majority....thats democracy...but doesnt sound fair is it? what about the minority?
nowadays its kinda a hot issue in my place about the minority being oppressed..and if ur reading up till now u'll know what 'minority' i meant here...well, considering we're leaving in a democratic country, i guess they just have to live with it? haha! sounds bad is it...but that's the ugly truth...painful aite? the majority chooses the leader to help the majority...the leader cant please everyone, especially the minority..why? because if he does, next election he wont get the majority votes...
ive thought of somehow a way to decrease this discrepency in democracy...why dun a vote is considered in percentage rather than a single count...and that percentage is based on the amount of tax the said voters paid...means that, the higher the amount of tax one pays, the higher his vote percentage, means his vote alone maybe count up to 4-5 person...to me its fairer than this old school single count vote..since the minority here always claim that they are the one who brings modernisation in Malaysia, means that they are the ones who are in the higher socioeconomic groups..which means they pay more tax...or is it? haha! anyway, this system might be better than what we are using now...no more racial slur...its all about productivity...if u provide more for the country, the more power u have in choosing ur leader...those who dun do anything, well...just sit tight and see what the future holds for u.. :p i hope some politicians will read this and take this idea into account..im sick of hearing minorities saying they are oppressed eventhough they are commited in the upbringing of the country..this system will show it all...who does and who doesnt..
hmm...talking about oppressed minorities, i wonder who is the richest man in malaysia right now...i wonder whether all of the things these minorities said about being oppressed by the majorities are true, or is it that they are being oppressed by their own kind...hmmmmm
Anyway, i read somewhere that some of the people in Malaysia wanted to make the age limit of putting out a vote is 18 years old...currently it is 21 years old...maybe some parties thought that by giving power to the younger ones, they might actually win an election...might be true, for one semester only..when they grow up(if they grow up) they will know the lies and games of politicians..i remember the war cry used by the Americans to change their age limit to 18, "if ur old enough to die for ur country, ur old enough to vote for ur leader"
its catchy, nice and somehow patriotic....but i like to put it this way,"if ur old enough to pay ur own taxes, ur old enough to vote who will spend the money" :D
i prefer dat the age limit of voting is set when an individual starts paying taxes...means they actually do something productive in the country rather than live as a parasite..just my idea though..a hell lot of people will be against it for sure...because a lot of people do nothing but want a hand in the vote...
hmm...i always wonder, what democracy really is...and after living for 22 years on this earth, i realised that its something like this....its about majority...the majority will choose a leader, and the leader will serve the majority....thats democracy...but doesnt sound fair is it? what about the minority?
nowadays its kinda a hot issue in my place about the minority being oppressed..and if ur reading up till now u'll know what 'minority' i meant here...well, considering we're leaving in a democratic country, i guess they just have to live with it? haha! sounds bad is it...but that's the ugly truth...painful aite? the majority chooses the leader to help the majority...the leader cant please everyone, especially the minority..why? because if he does, next election he wont get the majority votes...
ive thought of somehow a way to decrease this discrepency in democracy...why dun a vote is considered in percentage rather than a single count...and that percentage is based on the amount of tax the said voters paid...means that, the higher the amount of tax one pays, the higher his vote percentage, means his vote alone maybe count up to 4-5 person...to me its fairer than this old school single count vote..since the minority here always claim that they are the one who brings modernisation in Malaysia, means that they are the ones who are in the higher socioeconomic groups..which means they pay more tax...or is it? haha! anyway, this system might be better than what we are using now...no more racial slur...its all about productivity...if u provide more for the country, the more power u have in choosing ur leader...those who dun do anything, well...just sit tight and see what the future holds for u.. :p i hope some politicians will read this and take this idea into account..im sick of hearing minorities saying they are oppressed eventhough they are commited in the upbringing of the country..this system will show it all...who does and who doesnt..
hmm...talking about oppressed minorities, i wonder who is the richest man in malaysia right now...i wonder whether all of the things these minorities said about being oppressed by the majorities are true, or is it that they are being oppressed by their own kind...hmmmmm
Monday, November 15, 2010
this is malaysia
Guy A : My dad wants to buy a new car
Guy B : What car? U already have a car. I cant accept this!
Guy A : ......and why is that?
Guy B : because ur father is living in Malaysia. He earns money by having a job here. Means
that his money is taxpayers money! Its my money!
Guy A : er....u pay tax?
Guy B : I dun but my parents does! So basically its my parents money!!!! U shall not buy a
new car or else i'll protest in front of ur house!!
Guy A : ....i'll buy it anyway (walks away)
Guy B : @$E#%$#%$#% (goes home and put some shitty ass status on fb)
Guy B : What car? U already have a car. I cant accept this!
Guy A : ......and why is that?
Guy B : because ur father is living in Malaysia. He earns money by having a job here. Means
that his money is taxpayers money! Its my money!
Guy A : er....u pay tax?
Guy B : I dun but my parents does! So basically its my parents money!!!! U shall not buy a
new car or else i'll protest in front of ur house!!
Guy A : ....i'll buy it anyway (walks away)
Guy B : @$E#%$#%$#% (goes home and put some shitty ass status on fb)
Saturday, November 13, 2010
a word of the heart
this world is full of people trying to prove themselves right and coerce other people into their own ideas...meddle with these people but stand ur ground if u think u are right...and only be with those who practice what they say..but beware of those who speaks,but does not act at all....because this people have no honour...they preach without practice..and they speak as they are the master, but cowardly hides behind those cunningly crafted words which fool fools all around when asked to prove their beautiful lies...
im no knight,im no gentleman,im no genius...but i do as i speak and i try to keep that as my honour
its one virtue that is getting rarer in people this days....i blame it all on Socrates...Plato....of whom started all this...they made the world how it is now...
why we look up to those who can speak in front...again i blame Socrates..Plato...
and let those with great minds and low esteem be left rotten in the furthest corner of the world
societies always have a way to trifle those who have the potential to be great,because those who are great thinks differently,and society mock those who are beyond the norm
people can speak..with God given gift,a developed frontal lobe,we can marvel people with wondrous speech and words...but only some who really have the heart and belief in what they speak, give life to their beliefs and make changes to the world..
apartheid was not abolished by mere speeches....iraq was not demolished by mere threats...religion was not formed by mere preaches...
have ur honour...act out what u speak...that is all i ask
im no knight,im no gentleman,im no genius...but i do as i speak and i try to keep that as my honour
its one virtue that is getting rarer in people this days....i blame it all on Socrates...Plato....of whom started all this...they made the world how it is now...
why we look up to those who can speak in front...again i blame Socrates..Plato...
and let those with great minds and low esteem be left rotten in the furthest corner of the world
societies always have a way to trifle those who have the potential to be great,because those who are great thinks differently,and society mock those who are beyond the norm
people can speak..with God given gift,a developed frontal lobe,we can marvel people with wondrous speech and words...but only some who really have the heart and belief in what they speak, give life to their beliefs and make changes to the world..
apartheid was not abolished by mere speeches....iraq was not demolished by mere threats...religion was not formed by mere preaches...
have ur honour...act out what u speak...that is all i ask
Thursday, April 29, 2010
sacrifice
What the eyes dont see, the mind doesnt know....
Real sacrifice is when u do it,no one really knows about it...the unsung heroes....
Sadly,most people especially Malaysians are too blind too recognised the unsung heroes...to them,what they dont know is not true and not good...they rarely appreciate whats in front of them unless that thing is already gone....
i want to share a story of a man...he is raised by a businessman father and a mother who used to be a local entertainer...like any other boys,he IS naughty..but as he grows up,he started to have the feelings of responsibility towards his younger sister...many times he picked up a fight with other boys who tried to disturb his sisters...when he started secondary school,he followed in his father footsteps in his father's business,making ice cream cone...he worked hard as he thought that would be what he'll be doing later on in his life.....he tried saving some money from his father business but later his father found out about it and took the money away....his father,although a good businessman,a strict father who raised his child with discipline,is an addict gambler...he took the money the man saved for the future of the business for his usual activites...and one unfortunate day, he lost it all....lost everything on a gambling table...the man,dissappointed with what happened,quit working with his father and join the police...he started from the lowest rank,joining the force since the year 1970s....he doesnt have any certificate or diploma with him when he joined...just secondary school....during his time at the force,his wife persuaded him in taking classes in order to get some paper and move higher in the ranks....the wife sacrficed her time to be the only one who raised their 3 children while the man went on to classes after work has finished.....if there is no class,then its work 24/7....after getting his diploma, he continued taking degree....the wife continued taking care of the three child....after promoted to the rank of asp,he is transferred away from his birthplace,a place where none of his siblings have lived before....he have to leave behind his old mother and bring his young family with him...his workload increases...day and night,working here and there,risking his life at times to provide food on the table for his wife and children...he rarely sees his own children.....but to him,it is the main objectives for him to provide first before being there for them...the wife will take care of the rest....after few years, he continued his study in a master degree and is further promoted....but life never really changed....he is still busy....weekdays and weekend are all the same for his children...there're rarely family night out like all their friends family...the children grew up....went to universities far away from the homeland....and only that when the children are already far away,he is promoted to a higher rank and is less busy but he still left his wife 2-3 days a week alone in the house for work...sometimes outstationed to foreign countries up to a year...
this story is a typical story about a policeman life.....the man is my dad,and i really look up to him...every night when he goes to work, i would always hope i can see him again the next morning....thats how i feel...everytime i read the newspaper, looking at the criminals and how prudent they can be now,i just hope my dad would retire and work something else...but he wont...."i still love the force",he always said to me...not the salary,not the medal...his salary are just enough to bring up me and my 2 elder sisters..he's been there around 40 yrs now...moving here and there every 5-6 years...from kuching-klang-gombak-shah alam-bukit aman-phillipine-bukit aman-cheras...and some other places i dun know where he went to years before i was born..i can only look at the pictures of it...no one would write a book about it because no one would read it....unless he died in some kind of an incident...but whats the use of it? appreciation of something when it is not there...thats typical msian attitude...my dad used to told me stories about his work....breaking in to the al-Maunah hq in klang armed with only MP5 with no bullet proof vest....car chase with a trailer and some shot being fired....i wonder if in one of the stories, he got killed...will msian come to me as they come t0 Aminul Rashid's family??
no im not asking for stupid sympathy...im asking for conscience,and appreciation....while they are still there and alive....do msians have the consience of how much the police sacrificed their life so that we can sleep soundly at nite? NO....big fat fucking no...to them, everything the police did is wrong...no matter how,no matter what....God knows how much i despise this kind of people...yes,i take this emotionally because i grew up as one of the policeman child...when people doesnt appreciate what ur father did and instead tell bad things about them rationally u WILL be pissed off...and i am...
there's always two side on a sliced cake.....there's always two side of story from an incident...
yes,takziah buat keluarga arwah Aminul Rashid but also byk bersabar to the family of the policeman...ur husbands are doing their job...hopefully when the report and inquiries are done, no more political craps or fanatics deny the report(yes this is typically msians...they never accept a report if it is not favourable to them...it applies to elections too....)
Real sacrifice is when u do it,no one really knows about it...the unsung heroes....
Sadly,most people especially Malaysians are too blind too recognised the unsung heroes...to them,what they dont know is not true and not good...they rarely appreciate whats in front of them unless that thing is already gone....
i want to share a story of a man...he is raised by a businessman father and a mother who used to be a local entertainer...like any other boys,he IS naughty..but as he grows up,he started to have the feelings of responsibility towards his younger sister...many times he picked up a fight with other boys who tried to disturb his sisters...when he started secondary school,he followed in his father footsteps in his father's business,making ice cream cone...he worked hard as he thought that would be what he'll be doing later on in his life.....he tried saving some money from his father business but later his father found out about it and took the money away....his father,although a good businessman,a strict father who raised his child with discipline,is an addict gambler...he took the money the man saved for the future of the business for his usual activites...and one unfortunate day, he lost it all....lost everything on a gambling table...the man,dissappointed with what happened,quit working with his father and join the police...he started from the lowest rank,joining the force since the year 1970s....he doesnt have any certificate or diploma with him when he joined...just secondary school....during his time at the force,his wife persuaded him in taking classes in order to get some paper and move higher in the ranks....the wife sacrficed her time to be the only one who raised their 3 children while the man went on to classes after work has finished.....if there is no class,then its work 24/7....after getting his diploma, he continued taking degree....the wife continued taking care of the three child....after promoted to the rank of asp,he is transferred away from his birthplace,a place where none of his siblings have lived before....he have to leave behind his old mother and bring his young family with him...his workload increases...day and night,working here and there,risking his life at times to provide food on the table for his wife and children...he rarely sees his own children.....but to him,it is the main objectives for him to provide first before being there for them...the wife will take care of the rest....after few years, he continued his study in a master degree and is further promoted....but life never really changed....he is still busy....weekdays and weekend are all the same for his children...there're rarely family night out like all their friends family...the children grew up....went to universities far away from the homeland....and only that when the children are already far away,he is promoted to a higher rank and is less busy but he still left his wife 2-3 days a week alone in the house for work...sometimes outstationed to foreign countries up to a year...
this story is a typical story about a policeman life.....the man is my dad,and i really look up to him...every night when he goes to work, i would always hope i can see him again the next morning....thats how i feel...everytime i read the newspaper, looking at the criminals and how prudent they can be now,i just hope my dad would retire and work something else...but he wont...."i still love the force",he always said to me...not the salary,not the medal...his salary are just enough to bring up me and my 2 elder sisters..he's been there around 40 yrs now...moving here and there every 5-6 years...from kuching-klang-gombak-shah alam-bukit aman-phillipine-bukit aman-cheras...and some other places i dun know where he went to years before i was born..i can only look at the pictures of it...no one would write a book about it because no one would read it....unless he died in some kind of an incident...but whats the use of it? appreciation of something when it is not there...thats typical msian attitude...my dad used to told me stories about his work....breaking in to the al-Maunah hq in klang armed with only MP5 with no bullet proof vest....car chase with a trailer and some shot being fired....i wonder if in one of the stories, he got killed...will msian come to me as they come t0 Aminul Rashid's family??
no im not asking for stupid sympathy...im asking for conscience,and appreciation....while they are still there and alive....do msians have the consience of how much the police sacrificed their life so that we can sleep soundly at nite? NO....big fat fucking no...to them, everything the police did is wrong...no matter how,no matter what....God knows how much i despise this kind of people...yes,i take this emotionally because i grew up as one of the policeman child...when people doesnt appreciate what ur father did and instead tell bad things about them rationally u WILL be pissed off...and i am...
there's always two side on a sliced cake.....there's always two side of story from an incident...
yes,takziah buat keluarga arwah Aminul Rashid but also byk bersabar to the family of the policeman...ur husbands are doing their job...hopefully when the report and inquiries are done, no more political craps or fanatics deny the report(yes this is typically msians...they never accept a report if it is not favourable to them...it applies to elections too....)
Sunday, January 10, 2010
freedom
i just finished my 4th block...or...at least all the papers...still have a viva coming...so somehow im free right now..or at least till unis...not that free really...still have to revise for all the blocks -_-
so am i really free? i dont think so...freedom....a strong word...word that has been used for decades by those trying to impresss others...freedom of a country..freedom of speech...freedom to choose religious belief...freedom to choose..freedom of media..freedom of democracy..everything is free.....its so strong that most people are mislead by its true meaning.....
how do we achieve freedom? by being free?
freedom always relates to harmony....and how do we achieve harmony? by restrictions we call rules and law....and how do we have freedom when we have restrictions?
because freedom doesnt mean we can practically do anything or everything without any consequences...and that is what most people misunderstood....
rules exists to limit those freedoms we rightfully own...why?
so that our freedom does not invade the freedom of others...we live in a small world...where we share almost everything....we share one God(for those who belief on monotheism)....of which is called on different names by different religion...and for Islam itself,there's 99 names...
but why do we quarrel upon one name? is it wrong to share?
thats where the problem lies...sharing.....
sharing is caring...yeah right
sharing with those of same objective or destination is a good thing to do....
sharing with those of different objectives, just for the sake of using some things that we do not own to make our journey easier is usually what we called a parasite....
let me give an easier example....
A owns a car....he goes to work to KL every morning...B doesnt own a car but also goes to work at the same place as A...so he share A's car every morning and pay half of the petrol...
but what if......
A owns a car..he goes to work to Kl every morning..C doesnt own a car but has more than enough money to buy his own car but doesnt want to buy...so he sticks with A every morning to go to work but he works at a different place which is not on the way to KL and A has to reroute everytime to send C to work and make A late for work...now this is what we called a parasite...
the concept in this examples are to show whats happening now in malaysia....
Although the name Allah is not the property rights of Islam like the one in the example given,it is used by the religion for thousand of years without any disagreement by other religion....no war has occured before regarding the name used by Muslim to refer to their god....Christianity which exists long before the prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h was borned does not use the name Allah to refer to their god...even during the era of pagan Arab(pre-islamic)they believe in polytheism...and the name Allah was not used(correct me if im wrong with facts).....Christian refers their god as The Holy Father for the non-trinitarian, Jesus Christ as the Saviour and Lord and Holy Spirit as the act of the Holy Father upon us...and the Trinity branch of Christian believes that this three being is actually one which they refer to as The Holy Trinity....
now.....the problem arises when a certain Christian sect in Malaysia wanted to refer their Holy Father as Allah and wanted to publish it in their Malay Bible...now,can u see the resemblance between the current situation and the example ive given? this two religion has two different belief...two different objectives....although the concept of monotheism remains the same, the whole other part of the religion is almost completely different....(dont give me rubbish as to say that all religion are the same in a way that they preach people doing good...the side objectives may be similiar but the core of the religion is different) now why now that they wanted to use the word Allah? everything has a reason....i dont want to judge anything i have no facts on but u can judge it by urselves.....
they are certain muslims which states that it is their right to call their God Allah as it is the same..it is one god..now, can they say that all religion that believes in monotheism is the same? can Allah be called the Holy Father? since the Holy Father can be called Allah...
this is just my 2 cents on the current ongoing situation in Malaysia...
so am i really free? i dont think so...freedom....a strong word...word that has been used for decades by those trying to impresss others...freedom of a country..freedom of speech...freedom to choose religious belief...freedom to choose..freedom of media..freedom of democracy..everything is free.....its so strong that most people are mislead by its true meaning.....
how do we achieve freedom? by being free?
freedom always relates to harmony....and how do we achieve harmony? by restrictions we call rules and law....and how do we have freedom when we have restrictions?
because freedom doesnt mean we can practically do anything or everything without any consequences...and that is what most people misunderstood....
rules exists to limit those freedoms we rightfully own...why?
so that our freedom does not invade the freedom of others...we live in a small world...where we share almost everything....we share one God(for those who belief on monotheism)....of which is called on different names by different religion...and for Islam itself,there's 99 names...
but why do we quarrel upon one name? is it wrong to share?
thats where the problem lies...sharing.....
sharing is caring...yeah right
sharing with those of same objective or destination is a good thing to do....
sharing with those of different objectives, just for the sake of using some things that we do not own to make our journey easier is usually what we called a parasite....
let me give an easier example....
A owns a car....he goes to work to KL every morning...B doesnt own a car but also goes to work at the same place as A...so he share A's car every morning and pay half of the petrol...
but what if......
A owns a car..he goes to work to Kl every morning..C doesnt own a car but has more than enough money to buy his own car but doesnt want to buy...so he sticks with A every morning to go to work but he works at a different place which is not on the way to KL and A has to reroute everytime to send C to work and make A late for work...now this is what we called a parasite...
the concept in this examples are to show whats happening now in malaysia....
Although the name Allah is not the property rights of Islam like the one in the example given,it is used by the religion for thousand of years without any disagreement by other religion....no war has occured before regarding the name used by Muslim to refer to their god....Christianity which exists long before the prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h was borned does not use the name Allah to refer to their god...even during the era of pagan Arab(pre-islamic)they believe in polytheism...and the name Allah was not used(correct me if im wrong with facts).....Christian refers their god as The Holy Father for the non-trinitarian, Jesus Christ as the Saviour and Lord and Holy Spirit as the act of the Holy Father upon us...and the Trinity branch of Christian believes that this three being is actually one which they refer to as The Holy Trinity....
now.....the problem arises when a certain Christian sect in Malaysia wanted to refer their Holy Father as Allah and wanted to publish it in their Malay Bible...now,can u see the resemblance between the current situation and the example ive given? this two religion has two different belief...two different objectives....although the concept of monotheism remains the same, the whole other part of the religion is almost completely different....(dont give me rubbish as to say that all religion are the same in a way that they preach people doing good...the side objectives may be similiar but the core of the religion is different) now why now that they wanted to use the word Allah? everything has a reason....i dont want to judge anything i have no facts on but u can judge it by urselves.....
they are certain muslims which states that it is their right to call their God Allah as it is the same..it is one god..now, can they say that all religion that believes in monotheism is the same? can Allah be called the Holy Father? since the Holy Father can be called Allah...
this is just my 2 cents on the current ongoing situation in Malaysia...
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2010
Its been awhile now since i post anything in this blog...since im too 'busy' with real life and all...hehe
2010 is coming soon...leaving 2009 and the memories behind...this coming Saturday im having my 4th block exam...yeah,new year celebration in the exam hall....and a month after i'll be facing my university exam...it still feels like yesterday when i sat for my 1st year university exam....how time flies...but its different this time...my 2nd year sucks like shit...with my internals are all fucked up,i wonder how im going to pass this coming exam..hell no i dont want to repeat...i don't want to stay anymore in this place...but then im still blogging instead of reading through my notes...haha
so much to read,so little time and motivation....nowadays i always find myself idling in front of the laptop with nothing to do...will have to change though for this coming exam or i'll be shitting myself during the exam...
with this coming new year,i hope i'll pass my exams,got through into 3rd year, finish up my time here and go back to Malaysia for good...
Sometimes i wonder, how will i be doing later in life....what kind of a doctor i would be...no thanks i won't take such quiz in facebook to see whether im going to end up as a surgeon with hands of god or be in prison because i killed the prime minister mistress in a surgery...
Somehow i always feels like this examination system,how fair does it judge the students...some lucky bastard would be lucky enough that the part he read came out for the exam..some really hardworking students would fail his paper because he is sick or because he forget one organism while remembers all the other hundreds...i see a lot of my friends,some of which are really really REALLY hardworking that i thought it is unfair for them to fail...but then again,who am i to judge whats fair and whats not....thats just my humble opinion...examination system doesnt always produce the best student...it may also discard the best student themselves.....its quite tragic though,to see such hardworking students,failed their exam,and have to repeat the academic year...yes they say God works in a mysterious way....i couldnt help myself to question his decision sometimes...for example,in Islam it is said that non believers will be condemn forever in hell....what about those borned as non muslim...how would this be just for them? its not easy to embrace another religion when u'r borned with a different one...is it fated that some people has an easier path while others must face through hardships till the afterlife? maybe my logic and understandings doesnt apply to the logic of God....but then i cant help but to question again and again...
enough with my rambling thoughts,i think i should go now...im hungry and my food that i ordered an hour ago still hasnt arrive....thats why i hate this place....urgh....
2010 is coming soon...leaving 2009 and the memories behind...this coming Saturday im having my 4th block exam...yeah,new year celebration in the exam hall....and a month after i'll be facing my university exam...it still feels like yesterday when i sat for my 1st year university exam....how time flies...but its different this time...my 2nd year sucks like shit...with my internals are all fucked up,i wonder how im going to pass this coming exam..hell no i dont want to repeat...i don't want to stay anymore in this place...but then im still blogging instead of reading through my notes...haha
so much to read,so little time and motivation....nowadays i always find myself idling in front of the laptop with nothing to do...will have to change though for this coming exam or i'll be shitting myself during the exam...
with this coming new year,i hope i'll pass my exams,got through into 3rd year, finish up my time here and go back to Malaysia for good...
Sometimes i wonder, how will i be doing later in life....what kind of a doctor i would be...no thanks i won't take such quiz in facebook to see whether im going to end up as a surgeon with hands of god or be in prison because i killed the prime minister mistress in a surgery...
Somehow i always feels like this examination system,how fair does it judge the students...some lucky bastard would be lucky enough that the part he read came out for the exam..some really hardworking students would fail his paper because he is sick or because he forget one organism while remembers all the other hundreds...i see a lot of my friends,some of which are really really REALLY hardworking that i thought it is unfair for them to fail...but then again,who am i to judge whats fair and whats not....thats just my humble opinion...examination system doesnt always produce the best student...it may also discard the best student themselves.....its quite tragic though,to see such hardworking students,failed their exam,and have to repeat the academic year...yes they say God works in a mysterious way....i couldnt help myself to question his decision sometimes...for example,in Islam it is said that non believers will be condemn forever in hell....what about those borned as non muslim...how would this be just for them? its not easy to embrace another religion when u'r borned with a different one...is it fated that some people has an easier path while others must face through hardships till the afterlife? maybe my logic and understandings doesnt apply to the logic of God....but then i cant help but to question again and again...
enough with my rambling thoughts,i think i should go now...im hungry and my food that i ordered an hour ago still hasnt arrive....thats why i hate this place....urgh....
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