malaysia

92 stateless citizen get their gift during Malaysia day....
one thing crosses my mind....what if one day we are at war...where will those 92 people be? ok,i dont think its fair to say this to them...lets just imagine,where will we be? what will we be doing?
as Malaysian we've took the oath to be loyal to the King and country...how loyal will we be when the time comes when we are required to fulfill our oath...God may not ask us what country you hail from or how did you repay your country when you are in the grave but God did ask us to be loyal to our country and protect it from foreign and domestic enemies...
will we be brave enough to bear arm when the time requires us to do so...
will u bleed for Malaysia?

happy birthday

happy 52nd birthday malaysia...besides hoping for a better lifestyle for all the people,i also hoped that this coming year will show maturity in mentality of malaysians, especially the politicians...we might not be the best nation in ASEAN,might not be the worst too,but a better job can be done..
may this flag of our fathers fly high for all times

holiday

This is the second day of my holiday in Malaysia and i find myself wide awake after sahur.....usually i'll just crawl back to my bed,wrap myself in my comforter and wake up 10 hours later...but it seems now im more...active..haha...maybe due to the fact that i slept a lot the day before yesterday or,ive grown up...wow~ hahaha...
this holiday seems a little bit......how can i put it,bored maybe...because i have no car,and some of my friends are not in Malaysia...those here are a little lazy to go out due to ...haih....just my luck having holidays during this time...
besides being bored, i think im getting into a state of depression..haha...a lot of complication occurs in my usually bored life lately....that makes it a little less bored and more spices in it but yet,more spices doesnt mean good...ive just lost a relationship that i hold really dear to.....i ended the relationship but yet im the one feeling sad about it...funny huh? why end it if ur going to feel sad after that? well.....what if continuing the relationship also makes me sad? which sadness should i choose? its easy to decide when u have clear options given..but in my case...either way,i'll be depressed...but at least right now my depression will be my own trouble alone,not to share or burden anyone....its quite sad really...i feel like ive lost something that ive grown attached to....it may sound like movie script or corny but yes,the relationship do feel like a part of my life...maybe because the duration of it and ive never been in a lot of relationship....ive known her since im 14....now im 21.....ive known her for 7 years....and was in love with her for the 5-6 years in it....so u can guess how the relationship has grown as a part of me...but yet i decided to end it...not for good but at least for now....because for few reasons i do not wish to share....no doubt its unfair for her for me to end it,but yet,i think thats the only way...i dont know...maybe it was a wrong decision...but then,i remembered a saying,"there's no right or wrong decision,there's only how we handle the decision after we made it"....i hope its true and i hope i'll handle it well...at least better than i used to handle it 4 years ago....


ok...i dont know what to blabber about anymore...im too bored,i cant sleep,i cant eat and i cannot go out and its holiday...aih~ hopefully my friends will have plans to go out or anything for the next few days...or i think my holidays in Malaysia will be wasted on internet,sleep,psp,xbox and more sleep...aih..

extremist

last week there's the anti-ISA rally in the midst of H1N1 outbreak in Malaysia...and there's no shock when police arrested several underaged during the protest...and there's also no shock that the BA will use the same ol' tactic about FRU being barbaric and unprofessional by beating up the protester and such....and they will start blaming the judiciary body for detaining those underaged protesters...
my question is,do they really know what is ISA...does those 13 or 16 yr old kid know what is ISA....ok...maybe ISA is a little bit too high for them....did they ever even once,read the Federal Constitution...did they ever see the book??
i don't think they would as my friend of 21 yrs old doing medicine with me who are a strong supporter or may i say an extremist of DSAI never knew the content of the consti....and yet he strongly supported every moves DSAI made...funny huh? how can you fight something you never knew in the first place? all his facts are based on hear say or at least he reads it through the speeches of DSAI...no doubt DSAI is a good speaker...to be able to conjure thousands of protester whom doesnt have the knowledge of the consti to shout about human rights...
funny thing is,they know one thing in the consti...human right...the right to assemble....maybe because that is the most famous part of the consti used again and again by the BA to make what they've been doing is actually their right....and this,really points out the shallowness of their extreme supporters(reminder: im not a BA nor a BN supporter..i just hate extremists).....they shout about their rights,claiming their rights and so on and on....but just let me put a little part of the consti here...

Article number: 10
10.
(1)Subject to Clauses (2), (3) and (4) -
(a) every citizen has the right to freedom of speech and expression;
(b) all citizens have the right to assemble peaceably and without arms;
(c) all citizens have the right to form associations.
(2) Parliament may by law impose -
(a) on the rights conferred by paragraph (a) of Clause (1),such restrictions as it deems
necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of the Federation or any part thereof,
friendly relations with other countries, public order or morality and restrictions designed
to protect the privileges of Parliament or of any Legislative Assembly or to provide
against contempt of court, defamation, or incitement to any offence;
(b) on the right conferred by paragraph (b) of Clause (1), such restrictions as it deems
necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of the Federation or any part thereof,
or public order;
(c) on the right conferred by paragraph (c) of Clause (1), such restrictions as it deems
necessary or expedient in the interest of the security of the Federation or any part thereof,
public order or morality.


by doing a public demonstration in the midst of KL near Sogo,they clearly violated public order and this clearly against the consti.....which part of it they didnt understand? or they didnt read it...or yeah,DSAI never told them about article 10.2.....he just talk about article 10.1.....
what irks me the most is that those extremist are so damn proud of their stupidness that they cant even think what they are doing are hurting their beloved country...how much Sogo losts during the day? how about nearby restaurant or shops...how about other people who have other things to do on that day on that particular place...all things are disrupted just because this so called 'peace rally'....its no peace when you disrupt the peace of other people...
furthermore,the rally was done in the midst of H1N1......didnt DSAI know that the disease is HIGHLY contagious.....and can be FATAL....and a rally where thousand of people gather could easily helps the spread of the disease?
i understand when he did rallies before,during his ban in the politic arena...but now,he is an MP...he has power in the hall....he can voice out his opinion in the hall...he can debate his issues....he has the support of PAS and DAP...why the need of another rally? or is it he craved sooo much attention that attention from the hall itself is not enough?
and for those extremist out there,think before you act...you might think you knew everything already....you might think you've figured out all the conspiracies...you might think DSAI is a hero that would bring prosperity to the land...but think again....you might be wrong...MIGHT be wrong...

justifying war..

Whenever we took picture,people will always say 'peace'....we want peace..no doubt...there's no one in the world where they preferred war above peace...everybody wants to go to the market without having to think of possibilities of being bombed by suicide bombers or being in a place for hijacked plane to crash or being at a place targeted by a cruise missile or by biological weapon...we want peace...everybody want peace....and yet,we've seen numerous wars on earth...may it be civil war,cold war or world war....why war?

survival of the fittest...does it fits human or is it just the rule of the jungle?
human act as we are due to the presence of what they say a more evolved brain...the frontal lobe of human brain are said to be more developed than any other species on earth...which contributes to our capability of being diplomatic....but still, war continues...

what if i say, war is essential in the continuity of the homo sapiens species....we need war to continue to exist...yes its true war eradicates life....so how can i say it is essential in the continuity of the human race?

this whole writing are just a piece of my mind...nothing related to a real statements elsewhere so need not to be taken heavily...
we all know the infamous e=mc^2 by Albert Eintein....and we all the know the basic rule of energy..the conservation of energy which states that energy cannot be created nor destroyed..it can only be change to another form...and from that we can conclude that the amount of energy required to first create this world is equal to the sum of energy we have now..we humans,are energy itself in a different form...we are energy in chemical form...let say with the amount of healthcare advances we have today, the human population will surely reach more than 6707 million(which is the current world population).....the amount of energy is not infinite,its limited...with increase amount of human,there will be lessenergy for everyone...because the intial sum will be divided to every each human....with more and more human emerging due to increase birth rate and health care services, human with less and less energy are formed...or may i say smaller and smaller humans are formed...we always read about legends or history of great warrior or prophets..about how big or tall or strong they are....it may be due to during their time of reign, there are less human population and therefore less division of energy...and by luck or fate,that person acquire a vast amount of energy for himself and thus come the great warrior of that time...just my theory..haha..anyway,i think thats why,God created war...everything in this world,has its purpose....including war...there's no bad or good thing...everything is for a reason...and nothing exists if doesnt serve any purpose...war is to balance the energy..to convert human body to another form so another human may continue to exist...as the saying goes,for an empire to rise,another must fall...but the problem is to justify a war....which person to eliminate,which empire,which race,which civilisation....and i guess the holy quran already point out a race chosen to be eradicated...why that race is chosen? when we looked back into history,several incidence has occured upon that race..may it be nature wise or human wise...nature itself has tried to eliminate that particular race...man himself also tried to eliminate that particular race but to no avail...why? maybe because that race is fated to survive till the end of time...the race is there to keep the balance of nature and the balance of human population...

if e=mc^2....then e/c^2=m......can we create mass from energy? can we creat something from 'nothing'? can we play god?

emo

this wud be the first post which is posted due to my emo-ness...haha....i dunno,sumhow i felt after this 21 years of living,there are some decisions which im truely regret taking it....they say never regret for what u've done cuz that whats making u today...dats quite true but somehow somewhere there's a little voice in me saying that i dont like this...there's no right or wrong decision...its only about how we live it...but what if i dont like living my decision? i just cant quit...and i just cant go on living a lie am i? am trying to let it flow...but i dont like following the flow because its my life, im not going to let my life flow....but going against the flow is something im not up to do...haih~

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still holding on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need you like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights you know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

by Bryan Adams...i love this song.....

people and politics..

New things each day...thats how life is...every day i see something new,learn something new, know something i never imagined before...anyway,as usual, my topic of the day is politic...hahaha..how people and politic are inseparable.....what is politic? i can sum it up in a simple situation...a kid brought an extra sandwich to class...he gave it to one of his classmate of which he wanted to borrow his class notes....thats how simple politic is...its abt building relation with people...but knowing the evil nature in human, they manipulate politic to be something lower than filth itself..some people do politic for money, some for power, some for their own personal objectives..it could be anything,from good to bad...sometimes it can be seen as using people to get what you wanted...and some people are very good at it,they can make the people they use unaware that they are being used....
lets take a look at a smaller scope,my college....haha..politics are everywhere,even on college level...being on good terms with the lecturers might gives u the edge if you ever listed for the viva...or if you skip class, you can still get the attendance by giving some reasons as long as you are in good terms with the lecturer...some of my collegemate use their knowledge to be their political edge..knowledge in religion,in technology..anything will do to gain support of people, or to put up their name so that people will see that their exist...and it irks me when this kind of people(status craze people) when they start abusing their knowledge to gain a higher status in the society....well,everything must start somewhere,and at last these people,my collegemates whom will grow up and be the one leading the country,brought along these kind of politic into the country political scene....
and the result? is like what we've seen now...power craze here and there....using all kind of tricks,personality assasination....yes,im really against personality assasination...for example,you are fighting against another candidate for another party...you try to win the crowd not by winning their hearts, but by 'killing' the other candidate so that you will be the only candidate...how to kill? they look up your personal history,from the day you are born till the day you've become their enemy....every single thing will be put up, even how long it takes for you to stop urinating on bed...anything will do to put you down,and it will always succeed...why? because no human is perfect..


thats enough about politic,what im interested to say today is about tahajjud....LITERALLY means to struggle rid oneself from sleep...just now,there was a small misunderstanding between my batchmates about the way it is done...though RARELY did it...hehe...but this is the result of my research and i found out,mostly in Quranic verses, they act is done after one sleeps,though it is not wrong to do it without sleeping..so in the end it still depends on our purpose(niat) right?

Allah Most High said, “Establish worship at the going down of the sun until the dark of the night, and (the recital of) the Qur’an at dawn. Lo! (the recital of) the Qur’an at dawn is ever witnessed. And some part of the night awake for its recital, as voluntary worship for you. It may be that your Lord will raise you to a praised estate.” [Qur’an, 17: 78-79]

From this it can be seen that some part of night we are required to be awake,meaning that we sleep before that and some part means later in the night...

‘They forsake their beds to cry unto their Lord in fear and hope, and spend of what We have bestowed on them. No soul knows what is kept hid from them of joy, as a reward for what they used to do.’ [Qur’an, 32: 16-17]

from this it can be seen that,they forsake their bed,meaning they give up their bed or they wake up to do something....

and this is from ijma' ulama'...

1. The minimal night vigil prayer is 2 rakats. [Hindiyya, quoting Fath al-Qadir]

2. Its optimal recommended amount is 8 rakats, because this was the general practice of the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace be upon him, his family, and companions). [Hindiyya, quoting Fath al-Qadir]

3. Lengthier recitation is superior to a larger number of rakats prayed. [Durr al-Mukhtar, Radd al-Muhtar]

4. If one divides the night in thirds, then the final middle third is most virtuous. [Durr al-Mukhtar]

5. If one divides the night in half, then the second half is more virtuous. [ibid.]

6. Voluntary (nafl) prayer at night is more virtuous than voluntary prayer during the day. However, the full reward mentioned in the Qur’anic verses and Prophetic hadiths refers to worship that was preceded by sleep. This is also understood from the very linguistic meaning of tahajjud, which is to struggle rid oneself of sleep. [Ibn Abidin, Radd al-Muhtar, quoting Ibn Amir Haajj’s Halba]

7. Ibn Nujaym and Haskafi both affirmed that night prayer is recommended. [al-Bahr al-Ra’iq, and al-Durr al-Mukhtar; chosen in al-Fatawa al-Hindiyya] Kamal ibn al-Humam, the brilliant mujtahid who was the greatest Hanafi faqih of the latter half of Islamic history, however, wavered between it being recommended or a confirmed sunna. This is because while the spoken hadiths indicate recommendation, the continued practice of the Prophet Muhammad (Allah bless him and give him peace) would seem to indicate it being a confirmed sunna. This was also chosen by Ibn al-Humam’s student, Ibn Amir Haaj in his Halba. [Ibn Abidin, Radd al-Muhtar]

8. It is disliked to leave the night vigil prayer for one who has made it their habit, unless there is an excuse, because the Prophet Muhammad (Allah bless him and give him peace) said to Ibn Umar (Allah be pleased with him), “O Abd Allah! Do not be like so-and-so. He used to pray at night and then left it.” [Bukhari and Muslim] Therefore, one should take on an amount of works one can sustain, for the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace be upon him, his family, and companions) said, “The most beloved of actions to Allah are the most constant, even if little.” [Bukhari and Muslim] [Ibn Abidin, Radd al-Muhtar, from Ibn Amir Haajj’s Halba]

9. It is recommended to start the night vigil with two short rakats, because of the hadith of Abu Hurayra that the Prophet Muhammad (Allah bless him and give him peace) said, “It you get up for night prayer, start with two short rakats.” [Muslim, Ahmad, Abu Dawud]

from this it can be seen that it is adviced to do the tahajjud later in the night,not early in the night...anyway,to those who cant accept ijma' from ulama'....i cant say anything more to you..to me,these ulama' has studied the literal and figurative meanings of the dalil and hadith and we who are only mere medic student with no sufficient knowledge of hadith,quranic verses,hukums, have no right to make our on decision on such things..yes,Syafie once said if you find a hadith or quranic verses contradicting him, follow the quran and hadith...but how do we interpret the dalil? is what we interpret right? don't you think Syafie or the other imams has not seen the dalil and interpret it before they lay out their opinions? to me,those words from Syafie are directed to those who live a life of studying this field only,who expertise are parallel to them or at least has sufficient knowledge about these...for us who make these things our side interest,(we didnt study this things like we study for our block exams right?) we're just simply not competent enough...its like when somebody who has never been to a medical school but wanted to give out a medical certificate...its just not right isn't it? to give decision on something like this which can affect others, you need to be competent...thats why there's leader and there's follower..thats why God gave His prophet his words,not directly to all of the people...because only competent people can do certain job....