2010

Its been awhile now since i post anything in this blog...since im too 'busy' with real life and all...hehe
2010 is coming soon...leaving 2009 and the memories behind...this coming Saturday im having my 4th block exam...yeah,new year celebration in the exam hall....and a month after i'll be facing my university exam...it still feels like yesterday when i sat for my 1st year university exam....how time flies...but its different this time...my 2nd year sucks like shit...with my internals are all fucked up,i wonder how im going to pass this coming exam..hell no i dont want to repeat...i don't want to stay anymore in this place...but then im still blogging instead of reading through my notes...haha
so much to read,so little time and motivation....nowadays i always find myself idling in front of the laptop with nothing to do...will have to change though for this coming exam or i'll be shitting myself during the exam...
with this coming new year,i hope i'll pass my exams,got through into 3rd year, finish up my time here and go back to Malaysia for good...
Sometimes i wonder, how will i be doing later in life....what kind of a doctor i would be...no thanks i won't take such quiz in facebook to see whether im going to end up as a surgeon with hands of god or be in prison because i killed the prime minister mistress in a surgery...
Somehow i always feels like this examination system,how fair does it judge the students...some lucky bastard would be lucky enough that the part he read came out for the exam..some really hardworking students would fail his paper because he is sick or because he forget one organism while remembers all the other hundreds...i see a lot of my friends,some of which are really really REALLY hardworking that i thought it is unfair for them to fail...but then again,who am i to judge whats fair and whats not....thats just my humble opinion...examination system doesnt always produce the best student...it may also discard the best student themselves.....its quite tragic though,to see such hardworking students,failed their exam,and have to repeat the academic year...yes they say God works in a mysterious way....i couldnt help myself to question his decision sometimes...for example,in Islam it is said that non believers will be condemn forever in hell....what about those borned as non muslim...how would this be just for them? its not easy to embrace another religion when u'r borned with a different one...is it fated that some people has an easier path while others must face through hardships till the afterlife? maybe my logic and understandings doesnt apply to the logic of God....but then i cant help but to question again and again...
enough with my rambling thoughts,i think i should go now...im hungry and my food that i ordered an hour ago still hasnt arrive....thats why i hate this place....urgh....